I always said there had to be something wrong with me because my relationships were pretty much like a storm in the desert. You know what was the speech, right? "No, there is nothing wrong with you, they are the ones who did wrong...", but now I recognise and I admit that in fact there was something very, very wrong with me. To attract so many unavailable and emotionally abusive men into my life, I have been at least 50% responsible for that to happen. There was never a time in which I probably didn't act from a place of need, unworthiness, or low self-esteem when already involved with those men.