The Place of “I’m Not Sure”

The price I pay for it is to be in this “I’m not sure” place which is nothing more than self-punishment for not being capable of doing better. It’s as if I’m protecting myself but at the same time I know deep down it’s not a one-hundred percent pain-free decision. I might not feel that annoying heartache when you’re suffering and hurting others in the process, but feeling numb also feels alien. So that’s it, I’m not sure where I’m at.